More Bad Descisions

Ok so it is now something in the realm of ten hours later and i've still not been to sleep. I'll fill you in on what I decided to do after I knocked another couple of hours off my life then i'm going home.

First of all I read some particle physics regarding the CERN facility from some magazine my dad had bought for me. My dad does indeed buy me science magazines. He's still waiting on the day i'll put down my paintbrush and pick up a test tube. That's a pretty broad analogy but it works and I am actually too tired to think up anything with any more depth or distinction to it.

CERN scares me, these crazy men in white coats have no idea what's going to happen when they smash some of these particles together. They are trying to recreate the energy created by the big bang... I have a slight issue with that in regards to that the energy created in the big bang is the only energy we have, through conservation of energy. That sentence makes me sound like i'm saying it's going to run out.

Let me rephrase.

What I meant to say was that the energy created in the big bang was so astoundingly huge that it has powered everything we have ever done since. I might be being stupid and that might not neccesarily be true but it holds water in my mind. So these crazies are fucking around with that.

Also, and i know this makes people sound all sorts of crazy when they start mentioning this, but the CERN reactor could potentially make mini black holes. The scientists hope this is the case, even though they don't have a contingency plan for it, should it happen. I don't know what that plan would involve except for running very very fast and praying to anything that would listen. Now I don't remember ever in all the years of learning i've done -ever- hearing about harry the happy black hole who maybe wouldn't suck everything around him and compress it into a singularity. Just like I haven't heard about Andrew the alabastor star who doens't emit any heat.

"Aahhaa", the scientists wave their bony fingers over some delicate machinery and glare at me through their safety goggles. "If it does create a mini black hole the gravity of the planet will crush it out of existence. You're perfectly safe"

Hold the bus. We are talking here, about the earth, who's gravity is really pretty negligible as far as forces go, and a black hole, who's gravity is immense. I'm sure if it gets down to it our planet will win, i am completely sure.

It is pure delusion with just a bit of crazy stupidity thrown in. Who cares what's inside a hadron when you crack it open? All that's going to happen is that we're going to find more stuff to break in half and find out what's in that. It will keep going and going and going forever and we'll have so many particles out there we wont be able to see the forest for the trees.

It's not physics, it's a kid who takes it's fish out the goldfish bowl to see what will happen. We all know just how that story ends.

I feel much better for getting that off my chest, and also strangely sleepy.

So over the course of my rage induced come down i went browsing over the internet for things which would upset me, and did things i knew would end badly. These visitations include videos i knew would upset me and having a bit of a bebo creep.

Thus enforcing my reputation as a crazy delusional man.

I am going away home to have a sleep and play my guitar, then to drown my sorrows later with some beers. Take care

Making bad choices

Today, in order to celebrate my first Saturday off of work in god knows how long I decided to visit my mum and dad, eventually time moved on and i decided not to go home, but to stay here instead.

only one problem.

i don't have a bed here anymore so I had to sleep on the living room floor. I couldn't bring myself to sleep on the floor so i have now decided to just stay up until the buses start at half six and I can get the bus home. What a fantastic idea. Then i'll go home to mines and sleep allll daaaay.

There is no fault with my plan so i would enjoy it if you would stop looking at me like that.

I am experiencing a little bit of health drama recently. I keep feeling very faint and have fainted a couple of times. Went to the doctor, he did tests, there was nothing there. long-story-short i may possibly have a heart defect. isn't that going to be fun?

i'm quite excited because i have to get and ultrasound on my heart and i feel like i could potentially be pregnant with an alien baby. that would be amazing if it was actually possible and didn't just stem from me watching too much x-files.

fag break time

live from the gobi desert

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live from the gobi desert

the heat is too much to bear today. i've taken two steps outside and ended up with a criminal case of b.o. what a shiter

i've decided that wandering around in the heat is too much to bear so ive taken up residence on my window ledge and am watching the public drift past. my thought is that if the sight of the thronging masses wearing clothes only acceptable in the carribean drives me to suicide im in the best possible position.

time for toast one thinks. its too hot for coffee so i may make some and mix it with ice, as the caffeine depravation is killing me and my remples are beating me into submission.

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